My beautiful Harley

[angelicarboreals]

I woke up this morning and went to go check on everyone before starting breakfast, and was met with finding Harley at the bottom of his cage, one wing folded under his body and the other out to his side. There was blood everywhere, I was hysterical as soon as I realized that he was already gone and there was nothing I could do.

All of the blood was coming from his face, so I gingerly picked him up and brought him out into the living room so I can see what happened. Apparently, at some point during the night he must have had a night fright (although I didn't hear anything) and had bit his own tongue. The way I found him his upper beak was sliced through half of his tongue.

I am so upset. With myself, with his passing, with everything. Although I know that even if I would have found him before he died I probably would not have been able to do anything, it still makes me upset that he passed away in the middle of the night, probably scared and in pain.

Two weeks would have marked him being here for two years, he came from the same home as Joey. Chico, his buddy, is very quiet this morning. I can't stop crying, I don't understand what I have done to deserve my birds to start dying.....first Merlin at Christmas, and now this. I tell myself that things happen and with such a large flock I should expect that I may lose someone at some point, but this is horrible.

Harley, I will forever miss you staring into your food bowl in the morning and saying MMmmmmm as soon as I put your favorite treat in it, the way you greeted new visitors to the bird room with a hearty "Who are you?" (You even taught Chico and Wesley to say that!)



You were such a good parrot Harley. You hardly ever raised your voice and was so good about giving up your sunflower seed diet when I asked you to start eating pellets. You loved taking baths in your water dish and was more interested in spending time with Chico or with me singing to you than you ever were with the menagerie of toys I tried to get you to play with. You will be sorely missed, and I feel a huge hole in my heart already. Little Merlin is waiting for you, and will guide you to the other side of this life, wherever it may be.

I love you.


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[BPMar]

Oh Ab I am so sorry! 
You must be so devastated but you are a wonderful parront and some things cannot be helped.
Harley has many friends waiting for him at the bridge and I know Miah would be at the front of that pack to welcome him to that rainbow!
 
You are in our thoughts and we are here if you need us!!

[steptoe91(tozie)]

i'm so sorry. as i read i had a tear in my eyes, my heart goes out to you and your flock. i dont believe you could have done anything to cause your birds to die. it happens. we dont know why sometimes. all the words are inadequate. nothing can relieve your pain but time. in these early days it is sharp. but eventually time passes and blunts our pain. i'm really sorry.  

[BuffaloParrot]

Oh no Angel!  I am so sorry girl!   You gave Harley a wonderful life..  Could this have been a seizure?  Either way there would be no way to know and you did nothing to cause this.  I know the pain and guilt that comes with this but you are an excellent Parront!  Fly Free Harley, you will be missed!  :pray:

[NH Bird Mom]

I am so sorry, angel!!    D is right though it could have been a seizure.  I would think you would have heard a nite fright that severe.  Love and hugz to you and your flock.

[Erithacus]

Harley was such a beautiful bird. Sorry for your loss.

[sophiemae]

You know I am here for you, I wish I could be there to help you through. Harley loved you so and you him. You are a wonderful parront and always will be!
Fly free handsome boy, Merlin will guide the way 

[EriNes11]

Ohim so sorry angel!  He was such a handsom boy.  Im so sorry huggs....

[Debz]

AB, It took me awhile to post this because I kept changing my words around, due to the inability  to write what is felt. I wanted to say something more then "I'm sorry for your loss". which is heartfelt, but I also wanted to mention an understanding that I'm not sure I know how to convey. As horrible as his death was, I must believe that at the last moment, when the pain is gone, he came to an understanding that he was home. Surrounded by the many personalities and voices of his flock. He wasn't alone.  My thoughts are with you.

[EriNes11]

Shoot debz i was holding my self together.  That was so beautiful now im balling like a little kid. 

Once again Angel im so sorry

[macawlover2]

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry... I'm at a loss for words. Fly free, beautiful Harley 

[BrilliantFids]

Angela I dont even know what to say... I am so very sorry. My heart goes out to you and your flock. RIP Harley

[looniebirds]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[Jadesmom]

I am so sorry. 

[Ditty]

OMG I am so so sorry AB.     My heart goes out to you.  as D said, I also thought seizure as a possiblility.  but non the less he knew he was very loved. 
Fly high and Free Sweet Harley.